Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Saturday, March 29, 2008

We are pregnant!

NOT! Made you look! We had a moment there. A moment where I thought we might be new parents. But then it passed. And I was sad. SAD? Weird. We weren't even trying.

What is it in us women (most of us girls anyway) that makes a hope for a child even when we shouldn't or couldn't ? We weren't trying for a babykins. We are waiting. We have a whole plan for it. But when I thought I MIGHT be preggo and then found out that I wasn't there was a little part of me that mourned. And when I thought I was there was a part of me that was thrilled. And terrified. One of my friends once told me that when you are trying for a baby you are all excited about it until if actually happens and then the terror sets in. But no terror for us this time. Just lots of relief and a little bit of mourning.