Saturday, March 29, 2008

We are pregnant!

NOT! Made you look! We had a moment there. A moment where I thought we might be new parents. But then it passed. And I was sad. SAD? Weird. We weren't even trying.

What is it in us women (most of us girls anyway) that makes a hope for a child even when we shouldn't or couldn't ? We weren't trying for a babykins. We are waiting. We have a whole plan for it. But when I thought I MIGHT be preggo and then found out that I wasn't there was a little part of me that mourned. And when I thought I was there was a part of me that was thrilled. And terrified. One of my friends once told me that when you are trying for a baby you are all excited about it until if actually happens and then the terror sets in. But no terror for us this time. Just lots of relief and a little bit of mourning.


Michelle, Queen of Everything said...

I almost had a heart attack when I saw that! When it happens, you will be ready, believe it or not. Even if you are scared up until the minute the baby is born, you will be fine at that moment.

A lot of the freaking out comes when you realize you have a teenager all of the sudden.

The Memory Journalists said...

Girl! You totally faked me out. You're lucky I clicked and read first, I was about ready to pick up the phone! :-)