Showing posts with label Jackson. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Jackson. Show all posts

Thursday, November 1, 2012

The Mommy Curse

I love being a mom.  I love having this little bundle of non-stop energy that just wants to run and play all day. I love seeing the world through his eyes and rediscovering it all again.  I love the little phrases that he suddenly comes up with.  I love that when he is tired or hurt he wants to "hold you me."  That when he wants me to rock him he asks me to dance.  That without fail, every single morning, he crawls into bed with me to snuggle up against me and go back to sleep.  I love it all but one single part.  The Guilt.

That's right, I capitalized Guilt. Because seriously it is like no other thing I have experienced.  And I feel like as a mom you feel guilty over so many things.  Was I too hard on him or not hard enough?  Do I push him or let him figure it out?  Why did I have to lose my temper?  Why DIDN'T I get mad?  On and on and on.

Today was a particularly hard day of Mommy Guilt because when I drop the Boy off at his preschool he was sobbing.  He didn't want to go.  He wouldn't tell me why.  He was just clinging to me and refusing to let go.  So as I drove away good 'ol Mommy Guilt reared her head and started in. Maybe I should have left him, maybe I should have left quicker, what if something is really wrong, what if I'm not pushing him enough.  UGH.   The farther I got from him the worse I felt.  So by the time I actually got to work I was in full tears.  Just the way I like to start my day.

But then I started getting mad.  Because really no one is doing this to me but myself.  I know I'm not a bad mom.  I'm not perfect but I try really hard.  He is a happy, healthy boy who has many good people in his life and feels the love of them all.  He goes to bed with a full belly and wakes up knowing momma will be there.  While being a working mom has definitely made things a bit harder at times, in my opinion it has made me better.  Being fulfilled in all aspects of my life makes me well rounded as a person and as a mom.  I appreciate the days of fun that we have knowing that I will have to be away from him the next day.  And despite today's sobbing I know it is good for him too.  While I would love for him to forever be my baby I know that isn't possible.  I know that this is just the beginning of his stretching and growing.  I know he won't look back on these days and think what a crappy mom I was.

So here's the lesson I'm teaching myself in hopes that one day I can pass it along to my son.  Give yourself a break.  Do your very best.  Put your best foot forward.  Know some days you will fail and others you will thrive.  But most of all, let go of the guilt.  Or at least try to.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Jackson, 19 Months

Thanks to my awesome business partner at Life's Little Blessings for this amazing photos!  I love them so much Nicole!!


Monday, May 16, 2011

The Best Laid Plans

Well all my good intentions having been derailed by a sick toddler.  Who kept me up until 3, snotted and hung on my leg all day and is definitely going to be doing the same tonight and tomorrow.  I'll be back when we are healthy!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011


I really have the cutest kid.  No really.  

I mean look at that face?!  ADORABLE.

This one is my favorite.  He looks like an old school mobster.  We should call him Jacky the Knife or something.

His little neck SLAYS me.  What is it about the little neck?  I want to nom on it.

Yup, definitely the cutest kid ever.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Fairytale Town

Earlier this week me and some of the mommies took our kiddos to a local attraction, Fairytale Town.  Which will forever now be known as GREATEST IDEA EVER.

My kid has a lot of energy.  And by a lot I mean A TON.  Like wear me down and make me want to take a nap.  We spent 2 and a half hours at Fairytale Town and my kid was in his stroller maybe 20 minutes.

The kids had such a fun time.  They ran here, there and everywhere.  Up the stairs, down the slide, on the grass, around the train.  And there was the mommies huffing along behind them!

I'm so grateful that the Boy has these friends.  He has so much fun with them.  And they help wear him out with is great for mommy.

Especially this one, his BFF.  These two slay me.  Their favorite thing to do is to get in a corner together and just laugh and laugh and laugh.  Who knows what they are laughing at but they think each other is the funniest person they have ever met.

We all had such a great day.  And the Boy was completely worn out.  Slept like a rock that night!  Thanks mommies for the good time!!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Rewind: The Boy's 1st Birthday

So I am MONTHS behind but you want to see this right?  Here we go!

Of course we did the theme in Dr. Suess.  It was fun and easy.  We had all the stuff from my baby shower and from the Boy's room to use.  Free is my favorite!  Isn't that wreath adorable?  You can make one too!

We had cupcakes and strawberries and cakeballs, oh my!  Of course there were ham sandwiches and green eggs too.  The Boy was a little overwhelmed by it all.

Isn't his shirt adorable?  Check out AlphaChic run by my good friend Shari!  She did such a cute job with this shirt and I loved it.

 These were some of my favorite decorations.  I got them FOR FREE from The Giving Madam.  She is awesome enough to design these and GIVE THEM AWAY.  Like I said, I love free!

Look at how cute me and my boys are.  I love them.  They just make me so happy.  The Boy got himself a nice little nap before the party and woke up about 20 minutes before the fun began so he was in a great mood.  Which made mommy very happy!

At first my Boy wasn't so sure about all this cake stuff.  And then he tasted it and fell in love with sugar.  He.  Was.  Covered.  Just as every one year old should be.  

He got tons of fun gifts from his friends and family but by far the winners were the recliner from Nina and Papi.  How stinkin' cute is that chair?

All in all such a great day.  We had so much fun celebrating this first year.  We all made it!  Check out the slideshow for more pictures!